Sunday, 01 February 2009

  • Currently
    rearviewmirror (Greatest Hits 1991-2003)
    By Pearl Jam
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    I don't know how much longer I can do this.  Public Defending is slowly killing me.  My mental and physical healths have deteriorated since I moved to the Delta, 20 pounds, and no will power to do anything about it.  I kept a pretty clean house in Oxford, and started out doing so here, now I don't care.  I once cooked about 3 times a week, now maybe three times a month.  I went to a training session Thursday through lunch today.  I had hoped I would feel rejuvenated after leaving, but it seems the persons I talked to were experiencing similar degradations in commitment and hope since our last meeting.  I love this job, I love the community I have begun to become a part of, but the daily footsteps in the task are not bringing me closer to the goal, and the burden grows heavier with each new appointment.

    I think about the motivational speakers that I have listened to at these conferences.  They compare the humanization of the criminal defendant to the civil movements of the past, those struggles that can arouse feelings of shame in a white man.  I have often wondered would I have been a factor for change, for improvement, had I been a part of that generation.  I hope - that is about as far as I can go.  I do believe that what we do is a human rights struggle, no man belongs in a cage, and I am the one person whose words speak for those who cannot, yet I find myself thinking about quitting in my sophomore offering.

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    I am not watching the Aussie Open Final tonight, I am about to pass out now, trying to get things done before training, 7 hour drive each way, and full time training while gone has drained me.  This will the first time in possibly a decade that I have not watched it live.  Twice I have escaped in the cold winter night air with hot coffee or tea, my star book, and a warm blanket to gaze heavenwards until the 2:30 start time.  Last year the sun was brightening the eastern horizon when Tsonga was overtaken by that bastard Djokovic.

    I need a concrete goal, and I need personal fulfillment.  I do not know if I can find that here.


Wednesday, 21 January 2009

  • The Case I got Dismissed

    Kidnapping not the case; false police report filed

    Tuesday, January 20, 2009 4:10 PM CST

    Terri Ferguson Smith

    terriferguson@ddtonline.com

    GREENVILLE - A young woman who admitted she falsely accused a man of kidnapping and sexual assault will likely face a charge of filing a false police report.

    Khalilah Ruffins, 24, of Greenville admitted in Greenville Municipal Court on Thursday that she made up accusations on Dec. 29 that Lewis Jackson, 33, of Leland had forced her from her home.

    Judge Michael Prewitt said he had signed the warrant for Jackson's arrest on the kidnapping charge. Allegations of rape were not addressed in the Greenville Police Department's affidavit because the alleged incidents took place in Yazoo City and Indianola.

    Prewitt cautioned Ruffins that if she admitted to filing a false police report, she would probably face charges and he told her she could have an attorney present if she so chose.

    He also told her that the penalty for filing a false report was up to a year in prison or $1,000 and reimbursement of funds to agencies that investigated the report.

    The charge is a misdemeanor.

    Ruffins, who had already told the prosecuting attorney and defense attorney that she had fabricated the story, told the judge she would answer without an attorney present.

    Prewitt followed questions of the prosecuting and defense attorneys with some questions of his own.


    Ruffins did not offer an explanation for her actions, but simply answered yes or no when asked if she had made the allegations, whether each allegation was true or false and whether she knew at the time that she accused Jackson that she wasn't telling the truth.

    She admitted that all of the allegations were false.

    Prewitt, who had set a $1 million bond on Jackson when he turned himself in to authorities last week, granted a motion by prosecutor Eric Hawkins to dismiss the charges.

    “I cannot imagine what you have been through the last two weeks, ten days or so,” Prewitt told Jackson, who stood silently throughout the hearing. “I issued the warrant based on the facts as presented to me.

    “I'm granting the motion by Mr. Hawkins, with the court's apologies,” the judge said.

Thursday, 15 January 2009

Tuesday, 13 January 2009

  • Currently
    Sixteen Stone
    By Bush
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    There wasn't much to do tonight; I finished a book last night, nothing worth watching, and too cold to box.  So I set about humoring myself with my guitar.  The little strings were sounding flat even after tuning them a little sharp.  The only solution I knew of was new strings.

    A couple of years ago I went into the Oxford Music Store on West Jackson and purchased a two pack of ghs acoustic light, a dozen or so picks, and a shoulder strap.  Sometime thereafter I installed a new set of strings, the second pack, several pics, capo, and a tuner sat in a small wooden box that now rests on my bookshelf.  I enjoyed the strings until about an hour ago.

    A quick grab of a nickel to push out the pegs, my needle-nosed pliers to snip the strings near the machine heads(1), and five minutes later I was polishing a stringless guitar.  I opened up the box of strings, pulled out the individual wrappers resembling paper cd sleeves only to learn that there were no strings in the second pack.

    Not only did I get gipped by the fake two for one price, but also I now have no strings, and nothing to do for the rest of the night.  Oh well, guess I'll have a beer.

    (1) I have no idea if Bush's Machinehead is about the little silver knobs at the end of the guitar we tune the strings with, but it could be.  It is a fun song to play, when you have fucking strings!

Sunday, 04 January 2009

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